GREAT DINNER WITH FAMILY ON SUNDAY!

WOOOOOO!
 i practically studied the whole day todae after lunch.
but i dont noe wat the hell im studying also.
dont noe wat the OB crap was talking about ><"
miss 3 lectures, wat you guys expect man!
OB still okay actually, the WORST is MICROECONS! _|_
totally dont understand a thing from LECTURE 1 !
``HOW GREAT EH!
oh well, forget it. i'll just have to give it my best .
&& pray hard =X

had dinner at chinatown with family just now.
it was great! tho i still dont have my usual appetite =/
then shop for korkor's clothes
i bought 1 shorts and 1 shirt too :x hehehes!
feel so bad, spent my dad's money again D:
AHHH! gotta go study my OB more alr .
BUT! bloody hell, its like alr 11pm++ liaos,
still got some malay family karaoke-ing?!
'' WTH _|_ EH! i got mid-sem tmr!
PLEASE STOP YOUR SINGING! %%#$^%$&@# ''


P.s : To ppl having mid-sem tmr,
      Rmb bring thermometer and matriculation card :D

Happy Birthdays.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THESE PEOPLE!


- XU LAO SHI! :D
- LI MEI! :D
- YEO MEI! :D

70th post!

seriously,
im surprised. seriously.
after that ''counselling'' session.
i somehow got way way way wayyy better than you think.
i can even go down for TP's training todae.
how WONDERFUL is that! LOL
but, 1 THING. i still dont have my usual appetite.
guess what i've eaten today.
HALF a PLATE of SPAGHETTI nia.
oh gosh. & surprisingly, i survived with training.

okay, im so stressed right now.
i confessed. IM STRESSED!
reason?
i miss 3 lectures for both OB and microEcons.
and guess wat!
this coming Monday and Tuesday is the Mid Sem Test ALREADY! T.T
i totally feel like crying . super stress up .
i even start hurting myself.
i dont noe why im doing this. but nth seems to stop me frm doing it ><

arghhhhhhh.
1 problem after another.
am i really such a problematic person? D:

EDIT:
suddenly i kept thinking of this song.
idk why. especially the part when they sing the empty part =.="
oh.. th song was Empty by The Click Five.

Empty - The Click Five
Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I want to fill this new frame
But its empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
Its been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I've even wondered
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

Oh oh
Oh oh
Oooooh
Oh oh
Oh oh

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty
We're empty

Empty - The Click Five

BETTER!

after a short ''counseling'' session with my cp,
i actually felt better alr =O
how erm... wonderful and wow-ed is that? lols
he actually told me that i have 'panic attack'
i was like wow-ed! even my doc also dont noe sia.
and indeed it was quite true.
i went back home searching the net for panic attacks.
& i indeed have those symptoms =.="
well at least i got better now alr .

okay, guess wat?
its THURSDAY again tmr.
my 'panic attack' usually happens on thursday .
okay, so please please PLEASEEEEE dont trigger tmr =.="
nowadays, i am only surviving on bread+dinner.
if it wasnt for the medicine, i dont even think i will eat the bread in th morning lorh.
IM STRONG! & IM GONNA GET WELL SOON :D
but sometimes, i still doubt myself=.=


MY EXCEL THING IS A TOTAL FAILURE. HELPLESS. TOTALLY.
ANYBODY KIND, KIND.... KINDDDD enough TO HELP ME?!
oh well, forget it. i give up.

my father asked me to quit school.
should i? in a very difficult situation right now.
and i dont want to give up so easily
neither do i want tt.. _|_ argh.
so frustrating, but wat can i do if i quit school .
THIS IS GETTING SO FRUSTRATING.
WHY CANT I JUST GET A NORMAL LIFE LIKE BEFORE!
_|_

I HATE MYSELF. HATE MY BODY. HATE EVERYTHING.

THE

F**KLISH

SICKLISH

FEELING 

IS 

BACK!

F**K  _|_

DAMN IT LA.

pls give me back my normal health

my normal body, i just want to be healthy and normal _|_

kill me pls.

random? ._."

quite long no post le.
should post todae =/

had IntHT de frirst test ytd .
i would say overall it was still a okay paper for a first .
and i really didnt study much and was watching movie before th start of test =X
so, frm wat i know i think i got around 10 marks fly alr x.x LOL
ohoh! and 1 joke of th day was:
thr's this question asking wat's GVA(3-letter city code)
vivian actually wrote 'guava'. lols, so funny
(sorry vivian, i just cant stop laughing =X but good try :] )
i was even worse, when i first thought of wat GVA was.
i actually thought it was some,uhm, ''great valley of asia''?
omg lor, how could i possibly write tt down, thr's no such thing rite? ._."
lucky before hand in paper, i wrote Geneva, hopefully its th correct one
cause i anyhow, and some ppl got same answer as me =/
ALRITE, den COMM SKILLS TEST!
bloody hell, i no time write reference list.
hope i dont get plagiarism offense x.x
that book bloody hell lar,
so many authors den i almost no time write conclusion
cause of th BLOODY reference list!
oh well, watever is done is done.
should see how i did -.-

TODAY.
attended BCS lecture and Comm Skills nia den rush off le.
got something on =/
bcs lecture was a total bore . as usual .
comm skill was worse .
its Module 2 alr. Report Writing x.x
Group work somemore .
actually no offense, but i dont think its very conducive enough.
i mean th group part =/
but oh well, we'll just have to accommodate with each other ba.
hopefully, this module, can bond with my group more? =/
ok, HOPEFULLY! .
i ate my dinner at 4:30 todae .
super no appetite to eat . cause my mum cook lunch for me at like 1:30?
my meals timing like go haywired .
and my parents went singing AGAIN.
HOME ALONE D: sad.

tomorrow gonna be a boring day again! D:
bcs and rht tutorial.
ihate lab session! especially when 2 falls on the same day.
pls god, let me go through tmr SMOOTHLY! pls pls D:

YAAAHOOOOO!
yes, im finally BACK TO SCHOOL!
4 days of mc =.=" miss school, miss lessons .
&& seriously miss out alot of things .
am so gonna die during mid-sem tests !
diediedie!
feel so stressed . but i noe i shouldnt .

& i cant use com as often as usual ler.
cause my parents think tt because tt im using too much com
tt causes me to feel sick . but i think th other way.
but oh well, no use arguing with them .
so i'll just have to accomodate with them for a period of time ba
so ppl, you wont see me online so often lerhs D:

i love porridge, bee hoon soup .
have been eating them like since last thursday .
and i HATE rice now . totally. dont noe why.
But but , i still miss TP's bizpark de $2 chicken rice :x
i should EAT them once im WELL AGAIN ! :D

upset.

im so upset.
im not feeling well this few days.
and i really dont noe what's happening to me!
i hope i know too . its this chokish feeling inside =.=" CRAP.
its partly because of tt im upset .

todae. my mum had a performance .
i called her telling her im not feeling well and wont be able to go down to see .
and she actually 'shouted'' at me over the phone.
"ok dont come ." im like so sad when she did tt.
she's not even concern whether im okay anot.
she's concern whether if thr were ppl to go down to see her perform.
and come on la, if im feeling okay, i will go watch th rite .
i alr walk till halfway den abit cmi, den go home de
why th hell would i waste my trip .
she doesnt know wat i need . SAD.