'Pain'

Feeling the pain really.
In reality as well as virtually.
I really wanted to talk to you longer
but each time when I talked to you...
I will think of how our r/s came to this.
& seeing how happy you are now without me,
really makes me think of how insignificant I am to you.

I might be selfish and neglected you in the past,
but that is cause... I really don't know how I should put it.
Seeing you now really makes my heart ache
and tears just starts to unknowingly came flowing down.
I know I shouldn't be hoping this... and doesn't deserve to have this one more chance
But, I really hope you will just ask me this one more time
and bring me back to your side.

--I know I don't deserve this chance anymore.
   So, I wish for all the best in your life.
  & even tho I hope that we will forget each other, 
  I wish that you will still be by my side protecting me
  & I really really really want to tell you "I'm Sorry!"
  对不起！